If there has ever been an ultimate goal in my life it was to have a relationship with God. As far as I can remember I’ve always wanted it, but from a young age I didn’t know where to begin. We all have a story to tell when it comes to our walk with God. Here is mine.
Growing up I’d like to say that I had religious freedom to choose whether I wanted a relationship with God or not but I had no Idea where to start and for a majority of my life I felt spiritually lost. This played a huge role when I was diagnosed with cancer at a young age. I was in my early 20’s, just beginning to see what life really had to offer. In the midst of surgeries and treatments I decided to open up the bible and start reading. I can tell you now that I didn’t understand anything I was reading but I found absolute comfort in the word of God anyway. The moment we turn to God and he delivers us from certain situations we can see him being there the entire time — in hindsight. The best way I can describe my life before Christ is this: materialistic. I absolutely loved shoes (I still do…but more on that later), I wanted any new technology I could get my hands on but other than these material things I could obtain, my life really had no substance. In February 2018, a friend of mine asked me if I read the bible or what it was I believed in. I replied that I had read some of the bible but didn’t quite understand it and I believed in God. It was in that moment that I decided to start reading the bible again. The word of God is the foundation of your relationship with Him. I had so many questions and I knew reading the word of God would answer all of them. I was so committed to having a relationship with the Lord that I set off to find a church. It took a few tries but I finally walked through the doors of Goldenhills Community Church at the encouragement of a family friend and I immediately felt like this is where I was suppose to be. It was home. Pastor Larry Adams was giving a sermon on The Grace of God and, I couldn’t help but think to myself how amazing that I walked into this church on a day when the Pastor was talking about The Grace of God — something I was only just beginning to learn about and experience for myself. On June 3rd 2018 Pastor Larry was giving a sermon on First Communion and asked those who wanted a relationship with God to say the Sinners Prayer:
Lord Jesus, I know that I am a sinner and I believe that it’s my sin that separates me from you. I believe you love me, that’s why you came to die for me, in my place, for my sin, on that cross. And when you died I believe my payment was made, that you were taken down and buried in a tomb. And I believe that you rose again three days later, just as you promised. That you conquered sin, and death and the grave and you are alive. So Lord Jesus I ask that you come and live in me, wash away all of my sins and forgive me. Teach me to follow you all the days of my life and I will thank you for so great a gift.
This is when and how I accepted Jesus as my lord and savior and there are absolutely no words that will suffice.
Since then the most significant change is I no longer care about materialistic things — PAUSE. I am apart of the sneaker community. And I do still buy shoes. I do not need shoes to feel like my life has substance and if ever I felt like God wanted me to get rid of every single pair I would do so, no questions asked. I know a few people would never believe this but it is the truth. Everything within my life, my soul begins with God. No amount of shoes, no “Holy” grail will change that. — They are just that: materials and they could never fill the void that god has filled in my life. Also, my vocabulary has cleaned up quite a bit. Let’s just say…I don’t use as many french words as I used to. The best way I can describe my life is this: 2 Corinthians 5:7 “For we walk by faith, not by sight.” I must not build my life arounds things that have no eternal significance. Walking by faith means living life in light of eternal consequences, to obey the Bible even when it conflicts with man’s commands, to choose righteousness over sin, no matter what the cost; to trust God in EVERY circumstance; and to believe God rewards those who seek Him, regardless of who says otherwise. I have learned and grown so much in the last few months and Today (November 18th, 2018) being baptized means that I will walk a new life with god and my life with have substance, and I will no longer feel lost or have no hope because it is by Grace I have been saved through faith.
I think it’s pretty much a given that after Baptism life is never the same. (Duh Nena) but life now is nothing like it was before. I see things differently, I hear things differently and I feel things differently. There is a Peace within my soul that has not lifted since I came up out of the water. People around me see it, they feel it and honestly it is the best feeling that I could never describe. I used to stress and worry about the little things but all I have to do is give it to God and he will guide me. This last year has changed me tremendously and I wanted to share it with my friends, my family, my loved ones, my readers … with the world.